I dream things that never were, and ask why not?"
- Robert F. Kennedy
I Keep On Trying
June 30, 2008There is the stain of blood
on my soul that can not be
erased
There is hurt buried so deep
it can’t be uncovered
I keep on trying because
I don’t know how to surrender
How to simply lay down and
die
Through all the pain and scars
I have accumulated in this life
I want so desperately to close my
eyes and let the awaiting abyss
wash over me
But I am not able to let go
I was born into this crazed world
my soul battered and shattered
by the storms of life since
Introverted tears formed lakes
in my soul attempting to drown
all the misery and pain swirling
inside
I keep on trying to feel
to breathe
to live
to become
I’ve never been taught to
surrender
Even in the face of certain defeat
I’m guilty of having unspeakable
things done to me
And doing some in return
I keep on trying……………..
Black Orpheus
I don’t know if I ever wanna wife
‘cause when I get a good woman
I don’t ever do it right
I knew emcees bit
But I never knew love did
The way it did when it did
We had a kid
Together but our together
Felt like a bid
Our love was locked in a grid
We sampled true love
But the shit never cleared
I’m a man in the mirror
You got my name smeared
Playing them f—a-man songs around the crib
But you can’t hide love
From it I never hid
A slave to it
The only time we don’t argue is when
we do it
Mistaking love for so-called making love
But if it was real
We wouldn’t have to make a dub
I shouldn’t have to hate to love,
the physical route ain’t the only route to love
when the sex wears out
a nigga needs a scared hug
yea real brothers get lonely too
don’t even ask what me and my homies do
if I tell you it’s you
then it’s only you
you got me by cooking and washing
and your view on religion
now it’s dirty dishes and you only
believe in bitching
once we lost the trust
we lost us
now I must adjust
back to Black Orpheus
—–COMMON
