I Keep On Trying

June 30, 2008

There is the stain of blood

on my soul that can not be

erased

 

There is hurt buried so deep

it can’t be uncovered

 

I keep on trying because

I don’t know how to surrender

How to simply lay down and

die

 

Through all the pain and scars

I have accumulated in this life

I want so desperately to close my

eyes and let the awaiting abyss

wash over me

 

But I am not able to let go

 

I was born into this crazed world

my soul battered and shattered

by the storms of life since

 

Introverted tears formed lakes

in my soul attempting to drown

all the misery and pain swirling

inside

 

I keep on trying to feel

                          to breathe

                          to live

                          to become

 

I’ve never been taught to

surrender

Even in the face of certain defeat

I’m guilty of having unspeakable

things done to me

And doing some in return

 

I keep on trying……………..